There was a rise in power. There was a rise in leadership. There was a rise in governance. The advertisements, propaganda, posters wrapped around my mind, spiralling to the forefront of my peripheral knowledge. I was not interested in politics. I never was. But at the legal voting age, I was a part of theContinue reading “Voting Anxiety”
Tag Archives: Anxiety
Performing
Performing my assessment piece in Music Was always extremely nerve-wracking. I feel my bones shaking And my mind running. I love the thrill of performing But I was frightened that my song Would not live up to Those of my peers. It was a tough journey And now my hard work Lies within their earsContinue reading “Performing”
Damaged
The fear surrounds me, Capturing and holding my heart In a rush of anxiety. Hearing those frightful words, Ones I have not heard in four years, Tore my heart out of my chest. I did not think how badly You would have taken those words to heart When I could not care less. I knewContinue reading “Damaged”
Painful Words
The sting of your words Throws me off. I never could believe That you would say Those painfully striking words Ever to me. Now I kind of wonder If you even believe Those previous words You say to me Every morning and night Before I leave. In the night, The intense pain attacks me again.Continue reading “Painful Words”
Battle with Depression
I’d never admitted to anyone That I had a battle with depression. It all seems so long ago but still so close. I hated those years. The years that went by, The years that I felt worthless, The years that nothing happened, The years that I wanted to die. Everything in the world was soContinue reading “Battle with Depression”
Empty Pages
Before a writing session, I always glance at my empty page That haunts me in my sleep. I have an inner battle Between my fear and imagination Before an idea settles in. Only a few hours in And my creative energy escalates As ideas and words fill the page. The empty page is no longerContinue reading “Empty Pages”
Problems
Gasping for air as I run Pass the trees, people, forests. I try to escape the hurt, I try to escape the pain. My lungs are exhausted, but I cannot stop. I must keep going. I cannot let my emotions take over Because that is a disaster waiting to happen. “Inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale.” ThoseContinue reading “Problems”
Breathe
When I feel the fear rise in my chest, I am told to take a breather. But what happens when it’s too hard to? What happens? Sometimes meditations and body scans don’t work either. It feels like the whole world is falling onto my shoulders. I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe. When I feel myContinue reading “Breathe”
Find Your Voice
As the music begins to blast through the room, I ponder over the advice from my teachers. The melody begins to fill my mind And I question if I should participate or not. I never wanted to do karaoke with my friends Because of the fear that was building and living inside of me. ButContinue reading “Find Your Voice”
